Hello,

My name is Carol and I was diagnosed with bladder cancer, early November, had the surgery,  was staged T1 carcinoma in situ, and tomorrow will begin BCG treatment.

I have had irritation and urgency since the surgery. The only thing that has helped is drinking lots of water. The meds the doctor gave me did nothing.

I have been okay until today. I just wish it would all go away. I realized that I am scared.  I have 3 children, a bunch of grandchildren and 1 brandnew great grandchild. I don't want to spend the rest of my life being afraid so am looking for others who have been there to talk to.

I just don't know what to expect from here on out.

I live in a very small town so there are no support groups for this.

I know that this is a cancer that comes back even more aggressive.  That is what scares me the most. I can live with the disease just afraid of the outcome.